Long time no see.
Ever have those periods in your life when you look back and wonder what has happened for the last few months...years.... decades.
Aging is a hard thing to do, no matter that it takes no effort to accomplish, maintaining a state of age takes effort. I look at the world through aged eyes but still the youth cries to be free. Shame the body cries because of the pain of exuberance.
But, let us not despair. With age comes knowledge, but no one ever said it was useful knowledge :)